Incendiary
Well, this week could have ended better. This last-minute, emergency project I had dumped on my lap has proved to be way more time-consuming than I'd expected, and it looks like I'll need to go into work tomorrow to finish it. Moreover, the people who have picked up the fun project I had to drop keep coming to ask me questions about it, which just makes me more frustrated, because I don't want to have to spent time and energy (both of which are desperately needed for this emergency project) solving those problems if I don't get to implement them! I feel screwed either way.
Last fall I went through a period where I felt I wasn't pulling my own weight, and I've felt bad about that ever since, making other people pick up my slack. After this experience, I feel the scores are even (at least), and I'm going to try not to bitch about this project once I get it done, because of that.
It's still a real enthusiasm-killer, though.
It'll be interesting to see what happens in the coming months. Much as I'm getting sick of being a resource, the fact is that I'm just about the best resource our team has, now, for code knowledge and historical context of our application.
The internal politics surrounding all of this are fascinating and byzantine, but I don't think it would be wise to discuss them here. I'm largely indifferent to internal politics, anyway, unless they directly affect my own job. Which usually they don't.
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